tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8871433400980375714.post8349993818363036483..comments2024-02-20T21:39:49.265-08:00Comments on I Am Neurotic And I Need Help...: Surely This Was Hell....Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10237058236131496554noreply@blogger.comBlogger17125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8871433400980375714.post-67697854418622980212014-09-18T04:18:42.008-07:002014-09-18T04:18:42.008-07:00Josie, thank you so much! My fight with Postpartum...Josie, thank you so much! My fight with Postpartum OCD was 12 years ago. Postpartum Depression I was warned about but I was never told that OCD also has a postpartum illness. Postpartum OCD was not discussed openly back then, so I had no idea it was even a possibility. I had no idea what was wrong with me as I knew I was not depressed. I had no signs of Postpartum so I thought I had just gone insane. Thankfully my mother refused to let me suffer and kept looking and researching for my symptoms. She found my correct diagnosis and it helped me immensely as I know OCD is not indicative of violence. I was never a threat. However anytime I hear of an OCD sufferer about to give birth I always, and I mean always warn them that Postpartum OCD is real and it can happen and what to look for. I would never wish this kind of hell on anyone else. Also it seems that it doesn't always affect other births. I did not have this with my second child but at least I was ready in case it did. Still, people hear about Postpartum Depression and Postpartum Psychosis but almost never hear about Postpartum OCD and that needs to change. I have no idea what happened to that therapist. She ended up moving out of state. I also have no idea what happened tto my craptatstic doctor. However, I know that this is not how most therapists and doctors would react. It was just a huge event that coincided with having less than professional help. I thank you so much for your support and it really means a lot!Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10237058236131496554noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8871433400980375714.post-54606950161831864382014-09-17T22:29:18.024-07:002014-09-17T22:29:18.024-07:00I know this was written a while ago. It was listed...I know this was written a while ago. It was listed on the side bar of your blog.<br /><br />I had to comment- you should seriously think about writing to the therapist's licensing board. These are clear signs of postpartum depression and they should have done one of the following: treated you themselves, directly referred you, or reported you [which would not at all have been appropriate- but they honestly sound extremely ignorant of what your symptoms indicated which means they are also incompetent]. That they said they "can't be held responsible for what you might do" is irrelevent. If they expressed concern they are already sunk because they are a mandated reporter- they screwed up bigtime by just backing away.<br /><br />I mean, just saying- that was a really really terrible thing for them to do, no matter what ethical way you look at it. I just wanted to let you know: that was about them sucking, not anything to do with you. They let you down and you normally should be able to count on a professional in a time like that. I hope you don't take their actions as indicative of what to "usually" expect.<br /><br />I'm not sure how long ago this happened [sorry if I missed that!] but thank you so much for sharing. So many people don't understand that OCD is so different from actual threat.<br /><br />Joelle Mariehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15484443464515842975noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8871433400980375714.post-60885194052883921462014-01-20T15:33:51.919-08:002014-01-20T15:33:51.919-08:00Brittany, thank you so very much. That really mean...Brittany, thank you so very much. That really means a lot!Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10237058236131496554noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8871433400980375714.post-71336714819989108532014-01-19T19:17:59.429-08:002014-01-19T19:17:59.429-08:00I'm so sorry you had to go through this. I'...I'm so sorry you had to go through this. I'm also sorry that someone gave that "professional" his license. Someone needs to kick his sorry but out of the system. <br /><br />I haven't had children yet, so I've not experienced post partdum OCD, but I experienced similar violent images when I was seven or eight. As you wrote, they disappeared, and were replaced by other, less scary parts of the disorder. I've always tried to forget about those terrifying moments in my childhood until I began to research as an adult, and realized that those intrusive images are normal for people with OCD. It was like someone had strapped me to a chair and was forcing me to watch a violent movie on repeat against my will.<br /><br />I don't have the full disorder, I have tendencies. But I thought for years that it was an evil part of me trying to get out. By God's grace, I'm learning that that part of the disorder, and other similar symptoms aren't my fault. He's been teaching me how much I need Him over the years. <br /><br />You're in my prayers tonight. I'm so grateful you shared this on your blog. It's nothing to be ashamed of, and praise God your mother was able to hear it in your voice. You sound like a wonderful mother, and your son is blessed to have someone so concerned for him as you. <br /><br />P.S., If you ever want to chat, I'm on Google+. I love meeting new people and talking about the parts of life that many are afraid of. You're a brave woman.Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10141390955274051698noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8871433400980375714.post-19564620553642119642014-01-09T10:28:25.989-08:002014-01-09T10:28:25.989-08:00Thank you so much Savanna! I feel the same way. It...Thank you so much Savanna! I feel the same way. It is nice to know we are not the only ones! I am honored to have had such amazing support from people like you.Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10237058236131496554noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8871433400980375714.post-75323797239843368002014-01-09T08:42:04.377-08:002014-01-09T08:42:04.377-08:00This made me cry. I got this way with my second ba...This made me cry. I got this way with my second baby. I was fine while in the hospital (for 11days, she was preemie), but when I came home it all started. Luckily, I was aware it may happen and was able to adjust my meds and slowly, but surely was able to overcome. You are so amazing. I am thankful I joined the OCD group and found you. It's nice to know we're not alone. Savannahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12579546375088933624noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8871433400980375714.post-21490855718591218602014-01-07T21:18:02.905-08:002014-01-07T21:18:02.905-08:00Wow thank you! :)Wow thank you! :)Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10237058236131496554noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8871433400980375714.post-28521315699451286732014-01-07T20:47:54.613-08:002014-01-07T20:47:54.613-08:00The fact that you have been able to share this is ...The fact that you have been able to share this is staggering in itself..and I have the utmost respect for you for being able to do so. You are doing a great job of getting across " awareness " I know very well how judgmental others can be; down to pure ignorance. You really are an inspirational to those who feel alone!Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09346273743802092129noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8871433400980375714.post-10376755739488810522014-01-07T19:47:36.730-08:002014-01-07T19:47:36.730-08:00Thank you so much joanne. It is so wonderful to re...Thank you so much joanne. It is so wonderful to receive such wonderful support when I was really terrified people would freak out after reading my post and run away screaming. That is probably just the mental illness talking but we do become afraid that we will be judged harshly for our thoughts even though we hate them and do not control them. It truly has been uplifting to get such terrific support. Thank you so much.Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10237058236131496554noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8871433400980375714.post-84386974939606843732014-01-07T17:57:58.335-08:002014-01-07T17:57:58.335-08:00Nelly...you are indeed extremely brave for sharing...Nelly...you are indeed extremely brave for sharing this nightmarish experience. You are stronger than you know. If you ever need to talk...just go to my profile and mail me,,ok. Take care. J Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09346273743802092129noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8871433400980375714.post-42032091168263056442014-01-07T17:49:40.545-08:002014-01-07T17:49:40.545-08:00Nelly.....you are indeed an extremely brave and co...Nelly.....you are indeed an extremely brave and courageous woman for sharing this..you are stronger than you know. If you ever need to talk.....just go to my profile and go to my email address. Take care. Joanne. Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09346273743802092129noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8871433400980375714.post-19761197137831174472014-01-07T13:40:43.469-08:002014-01-07T13:40:43.469-08:00Thank you so much Bri! It has been a scary thing w...Thank you so much Bri! It has been a scary thing writing about these specific symptoms and images. I have had many different OCD symptoms through the years and feel I can openly discuss those without much fear of judgment but these were so awful and terrifying that I had kept quiet publicly about them until now. I just feel like if we are going to openly discuss OCD we have to be honest and open about some of the more scary symptoms as well and not sugar coat it. Otherwise how will get others to understand what having OCD is really like? Thank you so much it means a lot to me that you like my post :)Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10237058236131496554noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8871433400980375714.post-90984981395547809812014-01-07T12:58:15.444-08:002014-01-07T12:58:15.444-08:00I just stumbled upon your blog and I am so glad I ...I just stumbled upon your blog and I am so glad I did! This was amazing to read. It's incredibly brave for you to talk about thoughts that are viewed with such taboo that people just wont talk about it at all often times. Thank you for writing thisAnonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03014563090658541234noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8871433400980375714.post-11457272109917730192014-01-07T10:35:55.870-08:002014-01-07T10:35:55.870-08:00Michael thank you so very much. It is so scary whe...Michael thank you so very much. It is so scary when we have these images and thoughts in our heads. Talking about them openly can be even more daunting as we are afraid of what people will think about it. Truth is we are not dangerous and it is just how anxiety disorders work. We are not scar or violent. Thank you so much for your support, it really means a lot.Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10237058236131496554noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8871433400980375714.post-1701079628776067482014-01-07T09:41:40.145-08:002014-01-07T09:41:40.145-08:00Hi Nelly.
I’m so proud of the fact you spoke so op...Hi Nelly.<br />I’m so proud of the fact you spoke so openly about your obsessive thoughts concerning harming those you love. When I was in my early twenties I too had obsessive thoughts about harming my young daughter who was about three or four at the time. I too was revolted that I could even think these thoughts. But I later learned that these too are all part of the anxious mind when it’s tired, exhausted or overwhelmed. This has to be the most freighting experience when one thinks about harming the very apple of their eyes. I’m so glad I recovered and I no longer try to stop any intrusive thought, instead I allow it to pass through while knowing it’s only a thought and nothing more.<br />There was another thought to that used to bother me. I was running marathons at the time and while training I often thought I might spit on some other runner who passed me bye. This too used to distress me as I hate anyone spitting. Anyway I treated it like all the other intrusive thoughts and allowed them pass through while not giving them any more importance than all my other more normal thoughts. I have told others about my intrusive thoughts as I run a support group for anxiety suffers. When other members hear me talk about this taboo subject they become joyous at the thought that having these thoughts does not mean we will ever act on them, or that they are a sign we are somehow getting worse. Dr Claire Weeks has a great way of explaining this “A strange thought can easily get stuck in a tired mind”. Is that not reassuring? So again clap yourself on the back for you wonderful honesty and for the marvellous strength you must have to live your life in such a real and relevant way. Best wishes<br />Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8871433400980375714.post-2671809955869653062014-01-07T09:24:35.821-08:002014-01-07T09:24:35.821-08:00Thank you so very much Mari! I really appreciate y...Thank you so very much Mari! I really appreciate your support. It means a lot.Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10237058236131496554noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8871433400980375714.post-53845094748541240052014-01-07T03:26:19.362-08:002014-01-07T03:26:19.362-08:00You are so strong and a true fighter.You are so strong and a true fighter.Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17613038818125567024noreply@blogger.com