Some things have been going on lately, making it hard to sleep. The night is my worst enemy. It is too quiet. It is too long. And my brain starts to thinking it's most when it is quiet and too long. I can't clean to occupy myself because everyone is asleep. There is nothing on television to mindlessly space out and stare at. No music to distract myself from myself because to do that the music would have to be loud enough to drown out my thoughts and my thoughts are very very loud. I could have read but I was feeling too lazy. I could have written but the words wouldn't come to me. So, I just laid there praying to get exhausted enough to override my own mind. I just laid there and listened to the silence. Well, at least I think it was silence in the background of all of my thoughts.....I am not completely sure.
Insomnia blows.
I am so tired right now.
I will get over it, probably.
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Neurotic Nelly
I've been on a very mild dose of Lorazepam for 3 years now. I take it at bedtime and it stills the voices that keep me awake after I wake up in the very small hours of the morning. Might be something to look into.
ReplyDeleteThanks CP! I may have to do that when I finally get to go back to my doctor.Or maybe at the very least some melatonin or something. Insomnia is just a huge pain in the neck.
ReplyDeleteI started taking Hydroxyzine (sold as Vistaril, Atarax) about two weeks ago as a replacement for Ativan. Thus far its working okay with minimal side effects. Might want to check into it if you haven't already tried it.
ReplyDeleteThanks TR! I may try that!
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